Thursday, July 29, 2010

Red is Best

                                           Red is Best

I am participating in Jenny's:  Alphabe-Thursday's Rainbow Summer- Red Theme

Maybe it's because I read the book
Red is Best
to my little girl
she grew up
so when I spotted these Red Rain Boots
@ The Gap
there was no doubt
that for her
it would be love @ first sight
first jump

Monday, July 12, 2010

A Day of Play - kayaking Banff to Canmore

Banff to Canmore Paddle July/ 2010

 Started @ Bow Falls in Banff, Alberta
Distance of trip:  22 km
There were 6 solo boats and two doubles
This part of the Bow River is class II- some wavey sections
We feel so blessed to have three Rivers to paddle near to us
Bow River, Elbow River & Kananaskis River

Me taking a rest in an Eddy- slow moving water that moves in the opposite
direction that the river is running
I'm paddling an 11' Dagger kayak that
is very comfortable/stable and very durable

The 10 of us take a lunch break
It was a cloudy, threatening to rain kinda day but
not a drop was dropped
and the clouds made it such a perfect temperature

Hubby sitting in Eddy against dunes
Wish I would have got a picture of the hodoos behind him
the hodoos are a sandstone rock formation caused by erosion
that look like sand spires

The cherry on the cake was first the sound of the train's whistle then
the sight of the red engine against the backdrop of the mountains.
It makes for such a nostalgic moment

Friday, July 2, 2010

A penny for your thoughts

In the back of my mind
a well used, long treasured thought
which is:

'You aren't really hearing me.'


when I ask: 'why do I want you to hear me?'
there lies a wanting to be understood


when I ask: 'why do I want you to understand me?'
there is a need for acceptance


 beneath this need for acceptance?
a yearning for the freedom to stop trying to be enough


yet once again as I go deeper
 there is
an innermost desire
Inner Peace.

The thought

'You aren't really hearing me.'

now is really my wake up call
to make a choice
to keep this thought
to choose
Inner Peace
the true

This was a hard concept for me to express because it exposes one of the core beliefs that I carry that keeps me stuck as the victim. 
Also there is embarrassment because of all the times I have expressed this thought 'You aren't really hearing me' to the people I hold most dear  in a way that has come out as attack or defense. 
The good news is that this belief  does catch me and takes for for a ride once in awhile but not as often and/or for as long as it used to.  The extra bonus is that when I let go of my neediness to be heard people (mostly my hubby) are more keen to hear me. 

I wonder what thoughts replay themselves in the back of your mind and how you see them.